Little life Update
🌙 I’m back. And it feels… strange at first.
Hey there – It’s been a while. The last few months have been… rough. And honestly? Things still aren’t exactly “easy.” But then again – when is life ever easy?
🧠 Mental health & finding your own pace
Many of you already know that I’ve been dealing with mental health struggles for a while now – and I’ve always tried to be open about it. It’s hard to put into words sometimes, but it’s usually a mix of many different things.
I tend to overthink – constantly. And while planning isn’t necessarily bad, it became too much. At some point, I felt like I wasn’t meeting anyone’s expectations – especially not my own.
There were also a few personal, turbulent chapters I won’t go into right now. But I do want to say this:
If you’re going through something too – you’re not alone. It will get better. I promise.
🧸 My relationship with my hobby
For months, I didn’t touch my dolls at all. Honestly, I was overwhelmed. No time, no energy, no spark. After a while, they even started to feel like a symbol for everything that was weighing me down – like they were mirroring the heaviness I was carrying.
I even thought about selling many of them to “let go of the baggage.” But I couldn’t bring myself to do it. So I did the easiest thing:
Packed them away. Out of sight, out of mind.
🛍️ My small business
My shop went quiet too. The passion was on pause, and I didn’t create anything new for a while. Still, I tried my best to keep the shop running and ship out all orders on time. It gave me a sense of normalcy in the chaos.
To everyone who stuck with me during that time: thank you from the bottom of my heart. ❤️
📱 Social media detox & what it taught me
During my time away, I took a conscious break from social media – and wow, it was eye-opening.
How often did I find myself mindlessly doomscrolling? Not even looking at content I actually like (dolls, art, cat videos 😅), but stuff that just “works” because it triggers strong emotions or curiosity.
And to be clear: I don’t mind people marketing themselves. That’s not the problem. But the overly dramatic, emotion-manipulating type of content – just to get clicks and stir reactions – that’s not the kind of social media I feel comfortable in.
What also weighed heavily on me: the guilt. Unanswered comments. Missed messages. An empty feed.
Social media can make you feel like you’re constantly falling behind – even when you’re just taking care of yourself. And that’s not okay.
🔥 The comparison trap
More and more, I caught myself comparing my work to that of other creators:
“Why am I not as good as X?” “Why can’t I do what XY does?”
And in that spiral, I completely forgot to look at what I had accomplished. Because once you take a moment to look inward – you realize how far you’ve actually come.
🌍 A crazy world – no wonder we sometimes feel lost
The world feels like it’s spiraling – and maybe it always has. But now, with nonstop news feeds, social media, and negative headlines, we’re just seeing it more directly than ever before.
We’re living in a time where everything is happening all the time. Things feel unstable. Overwhelming. Even something like finding a place to live can become a massive, draining challenge. (And pet-friendly apartments? Almost as rare as unicorns.)
All of that really got to me. There were days when it pulled me down – to the point where I seriously considered selling my dolls.
But deep down, I knew: That wouldn’t fix the real problem.
And realizing that was… kind of a turning point.
✨ So what now?
Honestly? I’m not sure yet. But I’m here.
My passion for the hobby is slowly coming back. I even created a little content plan. But I also want to be careful – no more pressure. Just joy. Nothing in life is guaranteed, so I’m doing my best for now – even if I might change my mind later. I’ll just see where the journey takes me.
As for the shop: I’m planning a little update – new wigs and eyes are on the way. 🌙 But everything in its own time.
❤️ And to you, if you’re feeling the same:
If you’re feeling lost, exhausted or unsure – please know: You’re not alone.
Take time to understand what you need. What you want. Not what you “should” do or what Instagram tells you to be. Sometimes a quiet walk does more than a to-do list. Sometimes a pause is more powerful than a post.
You don’t always have to perform. You’re not worth less just because you’ve gone quiet.
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💬 Your thoughts are always welcome!
I’d love to hear from you – whether it’s your own experiences, thoughts on the topic, or just a quick “hi!” 💌 Connecting with you means a lot to me. 🫶
If you’d like, feel free to follow me on Instagram for more behind-the-scenes, insights, and creative updates from the doll world. ✨
📦 Want to support my work? Take a look at my Shop – you’ll find wigs, eyes, customs, and more for your dolls.
Every order helps me stay creative – thank you so much! 💖
Thank you for being here – and see you soon! 🌙
– Rina
